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[fuckinstoplights]

... They say we're supposed to find ourselves a place here. A purpose.

And they make it sound so simple.

But... what are we do to when... we don't know what our purpose is, any longer?

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[mookwarrior]

Sometimes a purpose is simply existing. But that being said, you should be finding some way to materially contribute to the community. What are your skills?

[fuckinstoplights]

I don't think there is anything for a prototype here.

... I'm just that. A prototype. A shadow. Nothing more.

[mookwarrior]

What was your function as a prototype?

[fuckinstoplights]

... I tested the one who came after me.

Trained him.

[voice]

[blight_phoenix]

Depends. What was your purpose before?

[voice]

[fuckinstoplights]

I am a prototype -- a stealth unit. Made to be a test run, to train the one the made after me.

That's all.

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[blight_phoenix]

Huh.

Sounds like it's time to find a new purpose, then.

[voice]

[fuckinstoplights]

Where do you start looking for something like that?

Re: [voice]

[blight_phoenix]

Well, in my case, I killed the priest that raised me, ran away from my planet, and took up mercenary work as a means of "finding" myself.

[audio]

[tinywife]

What did you do before?

Sometimes that's a good place to start.

[But sometimes it wasn't that simple. Pinoko knew that. Which is why she was quiet for a few moments, before adding one more thing.]

But maybe... if you can't go back to doing what you did before... maybe you can try out something new? You might not find your purpose right away but it might give you somewhere to start?

[audio]

[fuckinstoplights]

What I "did before" has no bearing on anything here. It's not possible any longer.

[Hahah fuck his life.]

Where would someone even begin to start?

[audio]

[tinywife]

[Sigh! Why were so many people around here so pessimistic?]

Well... What do you like to do? Even if it doesn't have anything to do with your purpose, or what you did before, what kind of stuff do you like to do?

[That... was hopefully an easy question. It wasn't easy to start over. Pinoko remembered being forced to try. And forced to try in a role that she was very poorly suited for at that. But this man had a choice. He could potentially do whatever he wanted. So thee was that at least!]

[audio]

[fuckinstoplights]

I...

I don't know what I would... like to do.

[When you spend your whole life living in a shed, essentially, you get really sheltered.]

[interneet]

Find something else.

[fuckinstoplights]

That's... not exactly helpful.

[interneet]

Because you've never had anything other than the purpose that's gone, right?

Find something else. It doesn't matter what. It doesn't matter how you find it either; do what you want. Find something else and give up what you had, because once you lose something like that there's no going back. Even if you could go home tomorrow, it's already too late.

[fuckinstoplights]

I don't know where to even begin to do something like that.

What do you mean, too late?

[Voice]

[ja307020]

Experiment, I suppose.

[Haha that's not familiar at all, nope.]

It seems to be a common feature of the User world.

[Voice]

[fuckinstoplights]

Experiment implies you know where to begin. I don't.

The what?

[ja307020]

Not really. There's always blind trial and error.

[A low snort.]

The User world.. this place. If the rest of them can function without directive or a sense of purpose, what's stopping you?

[fuckinstoplights]

That doesn't sound... helpful.

They're human.

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[staygoldponybot]

[sentinel usually fancies himself above using the network, but he still can't really walk and it's... a slow day. plus he should make contact with the others here. as prime. probably.]

What was your primary function?

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[fuckinstoplights]

I'm a prototype.

I'm the trial run.

The flawed design.

That was my function.

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[staygoldponybot]

[ok that wasn't the answer he was expecting.]

Prototype for what?

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[fuckinstoplights]

A stealth unit.

That's all.